"I'm In-LOVE"

Yikes! I know it sounds so cheesy and awkward but believe it or not this is the first time I ever felt like I'm really a girl.

IS THIS LOVE??


You know the feeling where in you can't stop thinking of him and you tend to imagine things that hopefully would happen in the near future, the grossness doesn't stop there! It's like whenever he's there I need to be nearly perfect or at least try to impress him and the worse part is I tend to be super conscious, I used to not look in a mirror that much and now whenever he's approaching or around, powder, lip gloss, hair brush and mirror are my best friends .. Well, maybe this is what it feels like to be attracted to your opposite sex, I mean I have crushes but only on celebrities but never have I experienced liking some one who is within my reach. 

I never knew this day would come, My mom keeps telling me not to entertain suitors because It could distract my studies and I used to think that why would I do something to bring myself down and ALAS!! I ate my words. Instead of studying, I chose to think of him. Instead of making my homeworks, I finally made our daughter's name. Now call me obsessed but you can't blame me, I'm a teenager for Love's sake and this is all new to me.

But this LOVE thingy is frustrating me, I used to be confident and enjoying every moment in school and with friends but now, I keep looking for him and when he's around I feel like I'm 1 inch tall and that he's gonna step on me not only that above my awkwardness, he doesn't even notice my existence. talk about insensitive and heartless, how could he let a fragile girl like me, make a fool on herself whenever he's around and yet he's clueless?? whew!! Freakishly Frustrating right??

But anyways, maybe this is better. At least I won't disobey my mom about our "No Boyfriend Until 20 Rule" because he's not in to me and I'm obviously and thankfully far way to temptations. I may not have my first boyfriend yet but I'm still happy because it's a good experience and makes me not a "Loser" when it comes to adolescence stage, now I totally belong to the "Newly Awkward Teenage Wannabes". I'm totally kidding. That's the last club that I wanna be into. 

This experience of mine is a nice thought to keep:

"Live and enjoy LIFE but know your limitations to prevent unwanted frustrations"


<3  

"The Pregnant Man"

A 34-year old man named Thomas Beatie was claimed to be the "World's First ever Pregnant Man". Yes, I know this is shocking and intriguing so, here's a picture for all of you guys to see.

Some people say that it's a miracle but others have a scientific explanation about these claimed pregnant man.


According to the family of Beatie that he was actually born as a female and he was named Tracy LaGondino. But he fell in love with Nancy in Hawaii and this was the reason why he or she decided to commit a sex reassignment partially because same marriages are not legal there. He had testosterone therapy and chest reconstruction surgery, but retained his female genitalia. To make this italic terms less nose bleeding, He simply took male hormones and underwent surgery to remove his breast but he or she decided to retain his womb. Nancy and Thomas wanted to have a baby but Nancy couldn't conceive because she had hysterectomy or simply she had her uterus removed due to the fact that she has endometriosis which is a gynecological medical condition and Beatie decided to carry the baby and took him two attempts of artificial insemination which is a scientific way of getting pregnant by inducing sperm cells to the female organ. In July 3, 2008 Beatie gave birth (naturally) to a baby girl named Juliette and Nancy breastfed the baby and was able to because of natural hormone lactation. This is the family picture guys.

This is Thomas with Nancy carrying the baby.


So, False Alarm ..
It's only a nonfactual urban legend.

"Pro-Tech/Anti-Tech??"

As an IT student, I would really like to express my opinion about the advantages and disadvantages of technology and when I mention technology, I am referring to these new modern devices such as Computers, Cellular Phones and etc. . . These technologies can affect our lives like for instance in school, at home and even in work both positively and negatively. Technologies are created to make our lives much easier and efficient. For instance, we can communicate with our love ones in just a snap even if distance is present through Cellular Phones, calling and texting them about emergencies are of a big help and it can also make our lives much easier in school because instead of reading thick books, we can easily research in the Internet through the Computer and this is also helpful in work, instead of handwritten reports done by an employee or a clerk and passing it personally to your boss, you can easily type your reports then send it to your boss through e.mail still with the use of Computer. As you have observed that everything is efficient and less energy, effort and time are exerted because of these technologies but enough with the Pros.


Now, I would like to talk about the Cons. These technologies can also be a problem in our society because of the fact that it makes our lives much easier, we become lazy and we tend to be irresponsible due to the fact that we rely more in these technologies for our survival in life rather than relying on ourselves and trying our best to attain what we need. These technologies are a big impact in our work ethics and in our value system because it bribes us to doing something which is unjust and wrong just for the fact that it's more easier and efficient. I would like to give an example. In my course, technologies are of a great focus because these are our expertise and there was a time that our professor gave us a project where we need to make a website that would calculate the salary of an employee, considering the deductions applied by the company/government. The programming code for this project is not easy to make, it cannot be found in the Internet also. Of course, our professor is an expert surely he wouldn't give a project which can be easily found on line. But there was a Computer Science student, my classmate in fact and indeed! he is smart but incredibly stupid, Imagine he posted the code in "Facebook" particularly in his profile and having a shout.out "Guys, here's the code you've been dying to look for! Hello Flat 1." and considering the fact that he posted it in a public site where everyone can obviously see and there's like 99.9% chance that our professor can see it, I mean for God's sake! surely our professor has Facebook and is updated with it. The next day we had our class, he was summoned and immediately given the grade of Flat 5, I guess he should have posted "Hello Flat 5!" instead. Another example is that there was a Cebuano Professor, I probably shouldn't mention his name for confidentiality and courtesy. he was asked by the President of the school that he was working for to create a wonderful oratorical piece to be presented by a student who was an excellent orator, He would be the coach and at the same time the author of the piece. Being asked to do such a job ordered by a very important person and being time pressured also left him no choice but to search for an oration piece in the Internet. Well, another dull move created by a human being! It's really a shame that he had done that, I mean he's a teacher surely he knows that what he had done was Plagiarism. How funny it must be to be the claimed author of the oratorical piece that your student is performing IN FRONT of the real author of the piece that you claimed to be yours. Coincidence? Destiny? or simply not using your brain? I don't know which is which but the thing that I know is that we all have a choice, he has just chosen the ever so deceiving easy way instead of doing the long run but worth it also. The instances that I have cited would really show that instead of using these technologies better, people tend to use it in a negative manner because it makes our lives much easier. Well, Yes! It's true unless you use it in a negative way then it would totally be the reason for your suffering.


An important note from me, you may concede or ignore it.


"It's better to suffer and succeed knowing you worked hard for it than to succeed because you chose the easy way and victory therefore, tastes bitter because you never worked hard for it and you surely didn't deserve what you earned."

"A Million-Dollar Lesson"

My mom and dad was legally separated around three to four years ago, I was still a freshmen in High school and my dad won over the custody due to the reason that my mom was such a workaholic and that she didn't had time for us. I really didn't know up to now why they separated and before I keep on asking questions but no one wanted to entertain my curiosity and I got tired of wanting to know about it. Ever since that separation my dad forbid me to ever see my mom again and even if my mom has the right to fight for that unjustness, she seemed to be so scared of my dad and I could still remember that very moment when I celebrated my 15th birthday and my mom secretly called me so that we could met up and celebrate my day with her because if my dad knew, it would be such a big mess and since I had classes that day, I skipped it just to spend my special day with her. Imagine secretly meeting up with your own mother .. how cruel, my dad must be?? just for drawing out that much fear into my mom's life. Several birthdays, Christmas, New Years .. these are the occasions I have skipped celebrating with my mom because my dad would kill me if i disobeyed him, he never hurt me though but it's as if I was experiencing what my mom was feeling and I hated my dad for forbidding me to see the person who suffered most just to bring me to this world that I'm living and I told myself that I would totally abandon him and live with my mother if he would continue this and he did and so, I decided to leave my dad and live with my mom, without his permission of course. My mom and I went to a place where in my dad couldn't find us, where he couldn't disturbed us, that's why I'm here in Iligan. His absence made me stronger and such a fighter and along with those are my anger and hatred for him, I hated him for ruining our family, I hated him for making me sacrifice my own happiness for his satisfaction, I hated him for hating my mom and I hated him for making me cry every night because I missed him .. I hated him that much and my mom kept telling me that I shouldn't hate him because whatever I do or whatever he has done wrong, he will always be my dad and I couldn't change that but i never listened to her. I thought this hatred of mine wouldn't be gone but there was a moment around few months ago where I met this new block mate of mine and we were really close because somehow I see myself in her, same attitude, same hobbies, practically same problems in life. I thank God that I met her because she was the reason for the new and changed outlook in my life. Why? because one day I saw her crying and I went near her then she told me that his father died due to a heart disease and It's like my heart was plunged by a knife because I was afraid that It would happen to me to and the thing that made her regret all her hatred is that she didn't even had a chance to tell his father all those things and his father didn't even had the chance to apologize and explain his side and she never also had the chance to tell his father that she loves him despite of all those hatred even for the last time. At that very moment, my dad's face flashed into my mind and right there, I realized that my mom was right, He is my dad and whatever he has done wrong still he is my father, he loves me and I also realized that I shouldn't waste my life hating him, as long as I still have the chance, I would settle everything and that I would make him feel that I'm still here, loving him and waiting for him to change. So the first step that I made was that I called my dad, I apologized and told him that I love him no matter what but I still didn't told him where I am. I'm giving him time to renew his self and prove to me and to my mom that he is worth forgiving but deep inside I already forgave him, I just want him to have this kind of motivation for him to change for the better!!!

"Our parents are only humans like us, they make mistakes but it doesn't make them less of a parent, it just makes them more human."

^_^

"MY TEARS OF JOY"

Yesterday, 11th of September, year 2010 was the very day that the most beautiful and blessed girl in the whole Philippines celebrated her 17th birthday .. well, I know majority of the people who read this specific blog would have violent reactions but I don't care because It's my birthday week and I want to be the fiercest girl in the whole country. Anyways, my birthday this year 2010 was the most unexpected birthday ever, SURPRISES popping out of nowhere .. I felt so overwhelmed and happy because I realized that I'm loved by many and still being LOVE ..

But before my birthday, I already felt that people are really doing their best just to make me the happiest girl in my very special day like for instance, my friend IKEM offered to give me a birthday celebration photo shoot on my very special day in the morning because I have classes in the afternoon and I was so happy because I will have my first photo shoot in my birthday and the good news doesn't stop there .. My new found friend offered to take me to a place where I can see the sun rise on my very special day and how amazing is that! starting your day with a beautiful sunrise and I thought those early acknowledged gifts are totally enough to make me happy but I was wrong, I was shocked when there was a gift left outside our house and when I read the card attached with it, turns out that it's from my "secret admirer". yikes, how weird is that! there's actually someone who is admiring me? unbelievable but at the same time very flattering, I mean it's not everyday that I receive a gift from my secret admirer and not only that my best friends from CEBU and DUMAGUETE texted me and asked for my address because they're going to send me a gift and just by receiving that text, I was enlightened due to the fact that they must love and care for me that much because sending a birthday package would really cost much and even if we're far from each other and we lost communication due to busyness still, they remembered my birthday and at that very moment I felt like I was a celebrity! you know the feeling that you're love by many because of who you really are, despite your negative vibes still they continue loving you and just by having friends like that, I COULD'NT ASK FOR MORE!! and since my morning was scheduled for the photo shoot and sunrise watching then my afternoon was set for my classes the only vacant time left is in the evening and my block mates and friends also scheduled the evening part for our celebration and guess what?? how would my mom and I have time to spend my birthday with each other when I'm that busy??

ALAS!! no worries because the surprises continued when my mom and I planned to celebrate my birthday on September 10, 2010 at exactly 12:00 mn to officially make it my birthday and imagine, celebrating your birthday in a very odd time .. a very tremendous experience indeed! and since my mom was not contented of our unusual celebration, we decided to have a proper birthday party early this morning until at this very time .. A never-ending celebration on my birthday !!

now tell me, don't I deserve to be the most beautiful and blessed girl in the whole country?? well, maybe there are more blessed and beautiful but my happiness defeats them all and i owe this all to our divine creator, GOD!! .. 

CARPE DIEM!!

Happy birthday to me:)

P.S.

68 wall post greetings on Facebook ..

45 private greetings still on Facebook ..

350 FLOODING NOTIFICATIONS:)

MAJOR, MAJOR!!! hahaha ..

"MY SLEEPLESS NIGHTS"

It's been a week and I have not remember a day within this week that I slept for more than 4 hours .. and yes it's because It's "MID-TERMS WEEK". pressure, brain rattling and mind cracking experiences name it and I got it. whew! 2 consecutive days of eating equations, graphs and the never-ending dillema of X and Y. still, I can't get the hang of it!, but the dillema doesn't stop there I still need to organize and direct a musical play in which our concept started from scratch and believe me, an hour presentation cannot be preapared in just a week. directing, scriptwriting, choreographing and slowly DYING inside. can u see my difficult transition from quantitaive to qualitative? from solving to dancing, acting, and directing? not only that, another thing pops up and conflicts with my studying and directing, DEBATING .. palakasan is fast approaching and I need to attend practices to enhance my reasoning, logic and matter and of course to be able to compete preparedly, not just being physically prepared but intellectually also. All of these important things are clashing in a span of one week and I can't manage my time. I just wish I can go to the highest peak of a mountain and scream to the heavens above just so I can release my depressions and worries then I'll snap back to reality and face all of my dillema's with ease and poise but when will I find time to do that mountain screaming?? anyways, just got to face the music, this is what I want and this is the price I have to pay if I want to be succesful in the near future, I need to temporarily sacrifice my social life just so I can overcome these responsibilities. FIGHT, FIGHT, FIGHT!! "Nothing is impossible if I just persevere and believe in myself". wish me luck ..:)

"NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE"

"The difference between the impossible and the possible lies in a person's determination." -by Tommy Lacorda ..

A wonderful saying that reminds me that I can dream as much as I can as long as i do my best to make my dreams happen! believe it or not, I keep telling the story which lies behind this saying to my block mates and friends. The thing that I can't understand is why I keep on remembering this saying and it's like I want to tell everyone about this story due to it's significance and It's unseemly important thought. These past couple of weeks have been too much for me and I usually forget to do things that I should do and still up to now, I'm super busy and catching up with my missed lessons .. but I love the pressure and busyness because It's like I'm being discovered and people are slowly realizing that I have so much to give and that I also have the potential to be someone who is worth knowing and I was so happy because I was accepted in the different teams that I dreamt to be a part of and I don't want to site these goals because I don't want to sound like bragging about my accomplishments, the thing is that I'm happy and hopefully there is still much to come for me and I know that there will be because nothing is impossible if I just do all my best to make it possible ... and of course with the help and guidance of Our beloved GOD ..!